My ears heard the sound of heartbreak
When your silence surrounded that night as I lay awake
The poison in me made my heart ache
A poison so strong, no antidote could ever forsake

My eyes saw the depth of heartbreak
When that smile on your face was nothing but fake
A pain so real , killing me in blinding light
Why did I let that part of us die that night?

My body felt the sting of heartbreak
When it cried itself to sleep when you stayed away
Your love was a promise, but a promise at stake
Now all the places you touched me asks me why I’m making this mistake

The antidote is strong but the poison is stronger
To taste one means saying goodbye to one and the other
Ten thousands of thoughts running in my mind yet no words to say
How much I wished we found love in a different place on a different day.

My nemesis stands tall as the door open
His shadow lingering in the visible light
Hopes shattered and promises broken
I know you'd expect me to fight.

Instead, I sit on this bed
With not an ounce of shame to hide
'You're a cheap little slut' he says
Just like he did on our wedding night.

His words cut deep but the pain he will not see
Is this all life would be to me?
He will hit me just to see me on my knees
For there's no bigger savage than he.

Tomorrow he'll ask me why I'm acting strange
How would he remember when its the drink that makes him sway
He'll tell me he loves me when I'm about to walk away
For he knows I love him enough to turn around and stay.

'Till death do us apart' he said, but was it all a lie?
Our wedding vows disappeared in just a wink of an eye
I've had enough, there's no more tears left to cry
If he loves me, why does he punish me? Just tell me why!

What would you do? Would you leave or stay?
When you know he loves you but its his monster that leads him astray
There's nothing here for me not even the dreams of yesterday's

Cold and numb the winds have turned
With no mercy, my life just spurned
People passing by
With not a look of concern
This life of mine has had nothing,
Nothing but hurt.

The wounds of time unopened and old
But you cut it open 

I am a free bird,

The world around her

My hands too numb, my body freezing cold,
I allowed the last tear to fall ,
Nothing was more tempting
than to answer God’s call
for I just couldn’t bear this pain any long

Here I stand a person so lonely,
so tired and so weary 
Just one last time, I want to see,
the faces which destiny has fordidded me
Why cant we all be like before? Why cant we?

Where was mother, and my father?
Were they all still far away from me?
What bout brother and my dear sister?
Were they so blind that they still couldn't see me?

I walked down the streets,
somewhere far far away,
where no one could ever reach

Why did everyone carry hatred towards me?
Were I that bad or is that how things were supposed to be?

In the dark and cruel land I lay,
familiar faces started drifting away
My veins crippled, my soul taken away
I heard “His” call…
and I knew I’m no more wasted away...

                                     - Krishnakripa Jayakumar

You stand there with everything lost;
I realize that my insights are lost;
Your heart's about to swell and break I know
For in your heart did I bore that deep, deep hole


I learnt to spell love with you
I wiped off all my tears on you
We lived life, 
just the way we wanted to
And now in your absence I realize,