We are just seconds away from ending 2011. Maybe it was a year full of sadness, that people want it over with. Or maybe, it was a year full of happiness, that people don't want tonight to end. But, we are eventually going to face it. A whole new year...and the best part is, WE can decide whether we're going to loathe it, the same way we did last year, or whether we want to turn it into something beautiful.

I had a good year, with a lot of beautiful memories that I have created for myself and a lot of misfortunes. But, at this very point, I'm happy that they only made my life better than it was the previous year. I am happy for everything that has happened in my life. And I AM happy for the things that are going to happen in my life from tonight onwards.

And, this is dedicated to my little (an underestimated word) friend who is not in the country with us right now. He claims that he's going to see 2012 rise with a pharmacology book in his hand ( a bit of a nerd you see )... I just want to tell him this...


I have been with you, I hope, as a good friend right along... And I have told you loads of things and I'm going to tell you again,
We all miss you, and when you come down here, we will have all the fun the way we used to. Right now, just hang in there... Living away from home is definitely a hard thing. But the best part is, you are just hours away from coming back down here. And we look forward to it :) Just do your exams well and catch the next flight... We are here... to bear-hug you!

I wouldn't be doing justice to all my other friends as well, so here it is... which ever corner of the world, you are stuck in right now, just know this... I love you and I hope the very best to you in the upcoming year! But do come back soon... I am dying to meet all of you :)

Despite all of it, I'm ending 2011 as an unworthy friend to many. I am not going to apologize individually. I'm just taking this opportunity to say sorry to all I have hurt by words, actions or feelings.

There are many things I would want to share, but I don't think it would be the best of idea at the moment. Fire crackers and party all awaiting around me. So, adios...

Once again, May you have a peaceful and wonderful 2012 ahead.

It's Christmas tomorrow and there is this deep hollow within me. Last year, this same time, it was great. I had all my loved ones, near to me. But this time, just the absence of one, makes the festive spirit so very dull.

As a child, I used to write up this big list of things I wanted and somehow on Christmas, I would have them all under the Christmas tree. And that day would be the best day I ever had  in that year knowing that Santa was watching me and that liked me.

Even despite the fact that I know there isn't one, I just want to tell you Santa that, if there is anything that I would ask from you, it would be the fact that I want back my loved ones. Just maybe for a day. Just to see them, talk to them... maybe its too much to ask for, because they are better off without me, but still, that would be my Christmas wish this time.

Its a far fetched wish, but atleast I'm hoping and wishing, as a child, believing that there is a real Santa somewhere in this world to just make my wishes come true.

Merry Christmas. Make a wish. And may your wish come true

I was afraid of the dark, and still I am at times. But being alone is nothing new to me. At least I've learnt to face the dark ALONE.

When the real world seems, now how do I put it, hmmm, a bit too "real" to live in, there is this burning desire inside us (me) that we should have been living somewhere else. It was out of this frustration, I created this entirely new place within me. The Soul Mountain.

The term "created" would seem a bit too redundant here, because what I really did was not create it. I merely "found" it. It existed within me and I was just looking inside me... into my soul.

The Soul Mountain is literally a collection of past and present memories. Whenever I feel alone or dejected, I visit it, indulge in that serene atmosphere and relive those moments.

It is a place which offers everything my soul yearns for. And every time I fall, I just picture myself at the bottom of the mountain. Yes I need to attain wholeness, and I will rise to the peak one day or the other, hopefully. Chances are, you'd think I'm exaggerating. But that's the closest to how I can put it into words.

In my mountain, its the balance I look for. Every time I fall, I find the need to rise. And just when I feel like giving up the journey, I just think of the reason why I held on for so long. Balance...who am I kidding? I am a Libran after all. The scales are all I need.

However I do not turn a blind eye upon the misfortunes that lie within my sanctum. Failures, injustice, etc do seem to revolve in my life. But, there is this peace and comfort that I find within me now. Truth be said, memories are all I have got, and I feel proud of myself for having walked through them. How I feel now? UNDEFEATED!!!

If you really do feel dejected, that you need someplace very comforting, there is no other better place than looking inside you, like I did. However happy you are in this world, there is a world inside you that wants itself to be recognized, that wants itself to be let free.

Look inside you... and believe in yourself. You are closer to comfort and peace than you really think you are.